Today was one of the hardest days I've had to experienced... I've never lost someone before, I'm so numb inside, it's almost scarey to be in so much pain and have so many unanswered questions. Losing you makes me question my own religious beliefs, makes me think of life after death and my own immortality. I get to the church and I'm still in denial, I see you lying there so peaceful, so free of pain, I wonder if you're looking down at me telling me it's ok and I just can't hear it. During the entire service I look around at all the grief striken faces and find comfort in the knowledge that you were truly loved. Your life meant so much to so many people. It poured down rain so hard that day as if you were showering us with your tears. We had to past the exact street where you had the accident to get to the cemetery and I just wanted to go back in time and change things. I tried to imagine what was going through your mind, what your last thoughts were. Was it like in the movies when you see the person's spirit and then they walk into the light being greeted by family & friends that past before them?